It's OK To Be Dissatisfied
You don't see that many churches trying to get you to walk in their doors using Psalm 69 verse 3 as their rallying call: "I am exhausted from crying, my throat is dry and sore, my eyes are worn out with looking for my God.
There are many more verses like this throughout Scripture that show that once a person truly comes to know God they are confronted not with a reduction in desire for God, but if anything the cork comes off of the bottle and they grow in desire.
In Psalm 42 we see a deep longing for God described as being like a deer panting for water, written by someone who we assume already had a relationship with God. In Philippians chapter 3, Paul, who is already "saved," describes pressing on towards a goal that he has not yet reached, and he is not talking about making disciples or converts, but it is related to his relationship with God.
Then there's David in Psalm 63:1(b) which reads: "My heart thirsts for you, my body longs for you in a land parched and exhausted, where no water can be found."
Could it be then that God, the infinite God, stirs up and unleashes infinite desire within those who begin to know Him? Could it be that once a person, "taste[s] and see[s] that the Lord is good," they naturally are not satisfied only with that taste, but want to fully taste and take in all of the Lord's goodness? If that is the case, and the Lord Himself is infinite, then infinite longing would be the only proper response to such an encounter with Him.
Let's meditate on this a little more. We know that God is love - this is made crystal clear in the letter of 1 John more than once. So what would be the natural response of a human heart to encountering pure, unfiltered, undiluted love? We see in the Song of Songs, chapter 8 verses 6 and 7 a description of the power of such love:
"...for love is as strong as death, passion as cruel as [Sheol]; its flashes are flashes of fire, as fierce as the flame of [God]. No amount of water can quench love, torrents cannot drown it. If someone gave all the wealth in his house for love, he would gain only utter contempt."
So here we see a description of love that compares it to the fire of God, a fire that cannot be put out even by oceans of water being poured on it. It is a burning desire that exceeds the power of death and the grave that no amount of money could ever buy. To encounter God truly, is to be encountered by such love. It would only be natural then to be dissatisfied by most of what the religious culture of the west and the world try to sell us. In this respect, it is OK to be dissatisfied with what the world is marketing to us. It is OK to be dissatisfied with what most "Christian" organizations say is an acceptable Christian life.
If anything, the Christian life should be marked by dissatisfaction until Jesus' return because we who have the Holy Spirit of God living in us know from personal experience that God offers far more than what most of the world is contented with. There is exceedingly more of God Himself available to all of us than we have been taught by so many teachers.
God wants to fully manifest Himself to us, in us, through us and throughout the whole earth. Not only is it OK to be dissatisfied until this reality is manifest in its fullness throughout the earth, we ought to be dissatisfied.
Maranatha! Come, Lord Jesus!
-Phil Carlson Co-President Worth Love Ministries
Scripture quotations are taken from the Complete Jewish Bible, copyright 1998 by David H. Stern. Published by Jewish New Testament Publications, Inc. www.messianicjewish.net/jntp. Distributed by Messianic Jewish Resources Int'l. www.messianicjewish.net. All rights reserved. Used by permission.